Hi! Hello! Abrigado! Aloha! I am here to stay. Wow, welcome to 2020! That is sooooo wild to me. I asked a coworker the other day, ‘isn’t this the year the plot of the movie I, Robot took place in?’ She told me the movie is set in the year 2100. I felt a mix of relief and disappointment. Relieved that my idea of the future (which is I, Robot) is still far very ahead. Disappointed that we still don’t have robot maids and butlers.
As God put it on my heart to restart this blog formerly called SonicHoney…Life and Times of a Christian Millennial, I was wondering what the first post on A Prodigal Love should be. God led me to the last post I wrote back in February 2017 titled ‘Loose Control.’ Honestly, reading that post fills me with wonder and amazement. The post was a VERY real illustration of everything I was going through during that season of my life. I read it again, I was reminded of where I was AND instantaneously filled with the wonder and amazement of who God was, is, and will always be…a loving Father who will NEVER let me go.
You guys it’s been a crazy journey. I turned my back against my Heavenly Father. I have hurt Him and hurt myself. I walked away from God’s church for a season. I got angry with God and sinned so much in my anger (which is a huge NO NO). I drank too much. I started cussing again. I was with men I had no business being with. I searched for love in all the wrong people, places, and things. I tried to build my own castle of sand to pursue my selfish desires because I believed God was ‘taking too long’ or ‘had forgotten about me.’
“And where did it all lead me?”
Running back into the loving arms of my Heavenly Father. OH MY DAYS!!! God’s love and grace is honestly too much to comprehend. God was there all along waiting for me to loosen my tight grip on my life and entrust all of me into His hands. God’s plans for me and you are soooooo beyond what we could ever imagine. They are for good because He is ALWAYS good.
God will allow us to prosper (Jer. 29:11) . God will NEVER forget us (Isa 49:15). God loves us so much He sent His one and only Son, Jesus, to come experience the human condition and then give his life for us (John 3:16-17). That is like a super rich farmer selling his home and land to move in with the pigs in the pen and then decide to die for those pigs (not saying we’re pigs but our sins do make us very unclean and unworthy).
In my previous post, ‘Loose Control,’ there were three questions pressing on my heart and I want to answer them for my past-self and for anyone else wrestling with these questions:
Who the heck is God? Like who are you. What are you doing? What are you made up of?
God is LOVE!!! And He is making a way in the wilderness. He is doing something new (Isa 43:19)! Ask Him to reveal it and He will show you at the perfect time.
“God is large and incredibly patient. God is gentle and consistently kind to all. He refuses to be jealous when blessing comes to someone else. God does not brag about His achievements nor inflate His own importance. God does not traffic in shame and disrespect, nor selfishly seek His own honor. God is not easily irritated or quick to take offense. God joyfully celebrates honesty and finds no delight in what is wrong. God is a safe place of shelter, for He never stops believing the best for others. God never takes failure as defeat, for He never gives up.”
(1 Corinthians 13:4-7 TPT)
Who am I? What am I doing here? Who am I supposed to be?
I am (and you are) fearfully and wonderfully created. Like it says in Psalm 139:14-16 (TPT):
“I thank you, God, for making me so mysteriously complex! Everything you do is marvelously breathtaking. It simply amazes me to think about it! How thoroughly you know me, Lord! You even formed every bone in my body when you created me in the secret place, carefully, skillfully shaping me from nothing to something. You saw who you created me to be before I became me! Before I’d ever seen the light of day, the number of days you planned for me were already recorded in your book.”
What is going on here…in this world? Everything looks pretty meaningless..so what is the point of it all, really?
“You didn’t choose me, but I’ve chosen and commissioned you to go into the world to bear fruit. And your fruit will last, because whatever you ask of my Father, for my sake, he will give it to you! So this is my parting command: Love one another deeply!”
(John 15:16-17 TPT)
God is eager and ready to do something new in your life this year.
The question is, will you relinquish control over your life and allow Him to amaze you?