April was not easy. Easy is hardly a word that simply slips off the tongue during these unprecedented times. I wrestled with loneliness during April. I wrestled with restlessness over how long this global lockdown will last. I wrestled with anger and confusion over what is going on in our world. I wrestled with doubt in God’s promises for me and if He is really sovereign over everything. I wrestled and I writhed. Through it all, God kept repeating the same thing to me:
It drove me crazy at first. Over time I think the Holy Spirit helped me reason that it’s either I obey God’s loving command to be still or I perpetually frustrate myself to no end because God certainly would not be budged from His throne. So I chose the former. In striving for stillness, God showered me with inexplicable blessings during the month of April. I feel like the tree Jeremiah described as rooted beside a stream, bearing fruit during a season lacking rain (metaphorical rain as this April was pretty rainy).
Here are some ways God watered my soul this month:
- Jessica Shakir’s ‘Hope Floats’ seminars are incredibly uplifting. Women from all over the globe gather on these Zoom meetings to listen to amazing women of God share messages that God has placed on their hearts during this season.
- Lamentations three is the song of this epoch, tbh.
- I’ve been resting more in God’s love for me and this podcast has been deepening my understanding of God’s love.
- This show is a very creative take on Jesus’s life story, it’s worth the watch! Download the app to watch the first season for free!
What’s giving you hope during these strange times?
Photos: Loris Marie and Tamas Tuzes-Katai