During a quiet time I had this past week I read a scripture that shook me.
Galatians 6:7-9 (CEV): You cannot fool God, so don’t make a fool of yourself! You will harvest what you plant. If you follow your selfish desires you will harvest destruction, but if you follow the Spirit, you will harvest eternal life. Don’t get tired of helping others. You will be rewarded when the time is right, if you don’t give up.
Wow! This scripture rebuked every part of me that was struggling this week. I struggled with my love for others. I had none. I (to be honest) wanted to punch in the face almost everyone who looked at me funny. I was seething with anger mostly because I felt hurt and insecure from continuous rejection. As a Christian we are called to constantly do good. To constantly love others. But what about when you keep getting hurt by others? What are you to do then?
Most of us get angry due to the ceaseless defeat we face in our journey to loving others. I start to indulge my selfish desire to close everyone off. To return the unwanted mean looks I get daily from people who know nothing about me. God knows that it is hard for man to be good. That is why he reminds us to keep our eyes on eternity. To deny our flesh and fight to strengthen our spirits.
But it is hard. This is where it helps to be honest.
When we feel these influx of negative and worldly feelings the response is often to conceal it and say a quick and cheap prayer such as “Lord, give me strength.” That is alright and all. But it is also the spiritual equivalent of putting a band-aid over a deep knife wound. Trust me, you will face this rejection and hurt constantly in your walk as a Christian. It hurts our pride to be rejected when we really do not need to be. It hurts when you are trying to reach someone and they do not want to try to even lift a pinkie to touch you. It hurts you but how do you think God feels? Not only do his own people often reject him, he is rejected by those he loves and wants to make his people.
As we see in the bible, God is honest about the hurt he feels. He does not brush it off and continue along the way.
In Hosea chapter two, we see an instance of God being real and honest about the hurt Israel has caused him with their multitude of sin. He reveals this hurt before he decides to continue loving them.
So let us be honest with God in our hurt. I prayed to God, being honest about the hate that I felt. The sadness that was being thrust upon me. The regret on my heart. I had to be honest about it all so I could find a way to truly love people. Trust me I am still looking. But I am facing the hate. I need to pray to find love in my heart and forgiveness.
Being honest and being real with yourself helps to pin-point the source of your struggle. It also helps you to hear when God is rebuking you. God knows what your heart truly looks like. He is bringing out certain things so that YOU will be aware of the true state of your heart.